I'm so sick of trying to make you proud
It's all I ever wanted, but nothing is ever good enough for you
I try so hard, only to feel failure run through my blood
I fear I'm breaking, I'm on my last leg

I say that nothing matters
But it just matters way to much

I know that you can't see it
No matter how hard you try
You think that you're so perfect and that I'm a shield
But I can't block everything, You hit me hard
and my emotions overload and fail

Disengage from reality
It's so painful when the one's you love say they care
But it feels like they don't even see you, or hear you out
Apologies are puked out of their mouths when you feel down
But the next day, it just starts it's self all over
It's an endless fucking cycle

If you really cared, would you not try to fix your faults
I really care, that's why I've tried so hard and changed so much
But you're to blind and deaf to even notice

I try so fucking hard
I've spilled my god damn guts for you
I do everything I can
And it never matters
I'm not the strongest
But I still give it my all
I'm not perfect
I'm sorry if I always fail